I’m feeling sort of uneasy about the way things are going between me and Wii. Of course, this could all be in my head, but at this point, I’m sure it’s safe to assume that that’s the case.
So I hadn’t seen him or heard from him in awhile. We’d talk in little spurts but never anything too in depth. When we last left off, I noticed that I was acting sort of like a jerk to him. Just the things I’d say were probably a bit harsh despite being carried over with the intention to amuse. I think that I may just be expecting too much. I know that he shouldn’t feel obligated to do anything for me, but in my heart I still wish he would. I’ve played the self-loathing jealousy part too much for too long. And I don’t want to act that way towards him again.
My initial reaction is simple enough: just stop it. If he wanted to talk, he would sign on or call. If he wanted to hang out, then he’d ask me. The rest is self-explanatory. But with that logic, I would have to do the same thing. And I don’t feel like I can.
Me: and i'm not a gay lounge and club virgin anymore
Me: hallam foe
Me: it has jamie bell in it <3
Friend: ooo :o
Friend: neato
Friend: gay lounge and club virgin?
Friend: O_O
Friend: what's that mean
Me: meaning, i went to a gay lounge and club yesterday
Me: first time
Friend: o_o
Friend: oo nice
Friend: how did that go
Friend: =]
Me: um.
Me: the lounge was really cool
Friend: oo
Me: the homos know how to design a place
Friend: lol
Friend: xD
Friend: haha
Friend: were the stereotypical gay guys
Friend: scary
Me: but it was really pretty and really chill
Friend: ?
Me: um, I didn't really notice there, cause it's not really a socializing environment
Me: i mean, other than the people you came with
Me: cause you're secluded in tables and booths
Friend: ahh
Friend: that's really cool
Friend: :)
Me: sorta like a restaurant
Friend: so who did you come with?
Friend: yea
Friend: not club like
Friend: :D
Me: but from what i saw there were a lot of old guys
Me: i just went with two friends of mine and met up with their friends.
Me: i didn't really say or do much.
Me: he ordered me an apple martini
Me: and some peach champagne thing which wasn't all that great
Friend: appletini!
Me: but that was enough to put me over the edge
Friend: ahh
Friend: thats intense
Friend: xD aww cute
Friend: *pats
Me: yea i'm a super lightweight
Friend: aww
Friend: cute
Friend: XD
Me: so then we went to a club called numbers
Me: it was really dark and there were shirtless guys everywhere.
Me: but you couldn't really see details cause it was so dark
Me: I was trying to spark some interest in the two guys we met up with but apparently they weren't feeling me.
Friend: oo wow o_o
Friend: shirtless guys
Friend: ah
Me: so after a very slow start, I eventually made it out to the floor and danced till they closed
Friend: awww
Friend: how fun
Friend: :D
Friend: thats really cool
Me: got a work out
Friend: yea!
Friend: how awesome
Me: then
Friend: that's pretty pro dude
Friend: =D
Me: when we went outside, this bald spanish dude called Ernesto complimented me on my hair
Me: to which I said thanks and asked him for a hug
Me: hardest hug I've ever had
Me: like, I felt like I was going to break
Me: but it felt really good
Me: I wanted to kiss him, but I didn't
Friend: o_o
Friend: aww
Friend: how adorable!
Friend: thats a cute story
Friend: xD
Friend: gwarsh
Friend: hahaha
Friend: that made me giggle
Friend: how sweet
Friend: =]
Me: yea, it was good times.
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