Funny thing.
Wii sent me a message on AIM Sunday. I checked my phone and I had missed a call from him. He asked me if I wanted to go to Beverages and More to check out their beer and maybe get something to eat.
While I was getting ready, Anna shoots me an IM. I’ve been avoiding her for the longest time though I didn’t want to come out and actually say hey leave me alone. I debated whether or not I should say something back to her. Eventually I caved in and decided to stop be such an ass. It was very light conversation and I made sure not to tell her anything specific about my life other than being in a band. If that’s the only thing she’ll relay to Joe then the highlights are all she needs.
The outing with Wii was nice. Bought some beer to try out, caught up on some stuff, had Mexican food. It ended kind of weird. We made plans to go to the gym on Thursday and he joked and said something about canceling. “Just like Halloween,” I retorted. “I was actually just looking forward to hanging out with Melissa.” I walked towards front door in a huff after mumbling something in disappointment.
It got me thinking: Why do I put up with his bullshit? I mean he’s a great conversationalist and nice to be around, but when shit hits the fan, I wonder if it’s friendship that brings me back, or deep down somewhere I still have feelings for him. I get that nothing will ever come of it and that’s fine with me. But when I react all hurt when he says that he was looking forward to seeing her and not me, you have to step back for a bit and wonder why that is.
I know for a fact that if it was anyone else, I would have clocked out a long time ago. I guess what keeps me coming back to him is that despite what’s going on with me, he always comes back for me.
Hm. I guess I should be thankful.
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